Care Bear

I am going to stop caring.

AND stop seeking.

Laws of physics

In physics, the law of conservation of energy states that the total amount of energy in any isolated system remains constant but cannot be recreated, although it may change forms, e.g. friction turns kinetic energy into thermal energy... In short, the law of conservation of energy states that energy can not be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another or transferred from one body to another, but the total amount of energy remains constant (the same).

You ever notice something that bugged you - annoyed the hell out of you. I'm talking about one of those slow gradual processes that ate into your conscience in its own intricately slow and calculated manner. It was most likely your own fault but could it helped?

Once you notice it, you see - it is there. There is no escape and ones own neuroticism feeds it. Your own thoughts, the driving stick to your own malevolence. The more you think about it, the bigger the problem appears, nay - will be. But once again, the question arises - can this be helped?

The answer - may appear simple. 'Sure! Your own contempt for the situation is the sole source of your own frustration. Mentally make peace with it and you too will be at peace. We're nothing but a grain of sand on a beach..."

That, may be true, but it doesn't sound fully human. We're imperfect. I'm imperfect... stupid and all encompassing.

Dysthymia

Cleaning the last dish was also the biggest chore. Placing the last of it, I washed my hands free of the grime and oil. Dirty...

Looking at the trash - the waste, I felt sick.

My mind wondered - it always did. The usual haunts.